‘I am mentally and emotionally equipped to enjoy a prosperous and loving life. It is my birthright to deserve all good. I claim my good.’ -Power Thought Cards by Louise Hay
July 7th, 2018. On that day, I decided to cut everything out of my life that was extraneous…I committed myself to 3 months of it (all this based mainly on my intuition at the time). At that point I was suffering from the following symptoms:
Excessive weight I could never keep off no matter how much I’ve tried in my life (and believe me, I’ve TRIED).
An up and down/roller coster relationship with food (and my body) that mirrored my relationships with men…indulging and then starving myself…overall just so fearful about certain foods; and also, commitment and intimacy.
Chronic and debilitating lower back and hip pain that I had always just chocked up to being a bartender and something I was just meant to suffer through.
Nonexistent periods unless I was on the pill, which made me feel crazy and not like myself. This has been a trend my whole life. (As you might notice, a lot of my symptoms are sacral chakra related…more on that down the line…)
Intense unexplained guilt and shame that made it hard for me to be vulnerable and go after and receive the things that I wanted.
Anxiety and paranoia….never feeling safe in my own skin.
Exhaustion, moodiness, resentment, and all the other shitty feelings that come with being at your emotional rock bottom.
People pleasing…overextending myself to others in my personal life and at work…not believing I was worthy enough just as I am…giving too much at the expense of my own needs and desires and instead of asking for what I need, just assuming rejection and abandonment and letting the story of ‘I won’t be shown up for’ repeat itself over and over.
Let’s jump back to January 2016 real quick…Read More